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Hello.
How was your day.
It's late now and i'm bored with nothing to do. Really.
And i'm not tired enough to go to sleep.
It's so weird that i can find energy at night and start sleeping in school -.-
That bad habit has to come to an end.
Sec 4 life is difficult, and i'm worried cause i feel as if i'm not as hardworking as everyone else.
And can you believe it?
I CANT FIND MY MIDSUMMER NIGHT'S DREAM BOOK.
OH MY GOSH. SO SCREWED LAH.
Ugh.
It's barely been 2 weeks and i feel so lethargic already.
I mean, 3 tests on the second week of school is obviously VERY DRAINING.
Not to mention doing all the holiday homework that i did'nt do during the holidays...
I had chinese compo today, and there's a lit test tmr, thursday there's amath test and friday's physics.
I'm reaching home late practically EVERYDAY.
Monday i've got chinese tuition after school.
Tuesday is training and physics tuition after that. (which means i reach home at around 10+)
Wednesday is LEARNING CLUB O.O
Thursday is training.
Friday is also training and i'm thinking of whether i should go for DBS.
Yes, that is my sec 4 life.
And at night comes the studying which probably explains why i'm still awake now.
Midsummer Night's Dream is okay to study lah.
But lit is just plain difficult to score.
Solution? PRAY.
Oh and BDIVISION is really coming soon.
I pray that the people in nationals will be able to play with us :/
And that i can SOMEHOW MAGICALLY DSA to a good JC.
Even though i think there is quite a low possibility of me being able to qualify.
But nevertheless, i will still try.
Since i have no confidence at all in my results getting me anywhere.
So this DSA thing is like my hope of having a better future? HAHAH.
Sounds retarded but yes, getting into a good JC is really important.
Especially in the if-you-dont-have-a-degree-youre-a-loser mindset of Singapore.
Where jobs are given based on how well you do in studies, meaning how well you can memorise things even if you dont understand (cause no one will know) and where there is no emphasis on creativity and individuality whatsoever, in the case of applying for jobs.
Well, at least that's what the impression of being in st nicks has given me.
The school wants the best for us and thus strips us from all of that "nonsense" and "rubbish" while drilling us into being the perfect students. Where we mug all day and night. Awesome.
And even though i have already been placed there for 9 (going on to 10) years of my life and have gotten used to all the conformity it has to offer, i still refuse to be moulded into a mugger with no life.
Maybe it's best i turn into one this year?
I have no idea.
But working hard also does not necessarily mean having no life.
So i shall try to strike a balance.
Study hard, play hard.
That's me.
Not st nicks.
Okay, in the midst of all this, let's just remember that sometimes we need to go through difficult times in order to be moulded into better people. I did not learn this from school even though they TRY to instill these values into us, and have talked to us about it with analogies and stories, but i have to say that values really cant be taught or impressed upon us through theory.
Yup. That's just my opinion.
But yes, My God's love for me is too steadfast to be weak and to let me take the easy road.
We need to struggle and suffer in order to reach certain heights.
And even if we lose strength along the way, His power is made perfect in weakness.
That's all i feel like typing for today.
This blog is quite good to help me de-stress and focus on my goals eh? Cool...
Goodnight.
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